Atok looked very ill these past few days. He just kept hurting. How tumultous it must be to feel so much pain yet unable to tell anyone about it.


Atok's blisters on his hands and feet were getting worse. His fever kept coming back. I remember how i would talk to him while holding the ice pack to his head. All he could do while he was awake was make sounds to tell you how much he was hurting. i contemplated and prepadre myself, thinking that since i've already had m mind tuned to this inevitably sad ending that i would be ok when the timereally does come.


At 2015hrs. It was odd. You know the whole thing about the family splitting into 2.


Some of my aunts including mak and abah were by atok's bedside. The afternoon nurse that was doing her rounds asked them to wait outside while she changed his dressings.


They rushed to atok bedside as soon as that same nurse came running. It was no good news.


Everyone started crying. Gone was the atok that seem so alert and recovering a few days earlier. He even held me hand,you know. He even pointed out to the areas of his arms ang leg that hurt mst so i could massage them to make it less painful.He was even smiling when we talked to him, as if he was responding to us.


As i sat on the floor by his bedside with my other relatives, we couldn't help but cry while kite bace doa untuk atok.


They made arrangements for atok to be rolled away to the mortuary so that the other stuff that needed to happen, happen. But before that, atok was rolled into a private room as the idea of a deceased in the ward would cause chaos. Yang mane yang tu bace surah Al-Yasin did that while yang tak fasir sangat bace segala surah2 yg lain.


Atok's jenazah was transported back to Eunos Crescent.


Abah, mak dan yang lain temankan atok dalam bilik, semue tak terhenti2 bace surah2.


I was devastated. Bb was at Somerset with his friends as usual. He tried to comfort me, it didn't really work. I don't blame him though. Atok, nenek, Mak Ani and Maman brought me up and took care of me eversince i was a baby. I didn't have any grandparents left. Mereka dah kembali ke sisi Allah.

The rest of the night was kind of a blur.

"People say I'm difficult; but so are they."

Icha

10:03 pm